Little Souls
To you, to my favorite 8-year-old-soul whom I've once loved,
I guess it's a bit mistake for me to write about you. Hahahaha.
Especially at times like this.
But I want to. And maybe, maybe.... I need to.
You see, you are forever in my life.
I've known you for ages, and at the same time I don't know you at all
You were the first of everything and this time I gotta be honest,
Everytime I get the chance to see you, which a privilege I don't get really often,
I try always to "grab" the idea of me in you,
trying to find the happier, better version of me that maybe I can find in you
Deep, deep, down inside of you
You knew me before reality hit me hard to the ground
We always grow together, though we grow separately, and sadly, grow apart...
But I can see myself getting old as you're getting old
I can see myself in you
I can see that I'm leaving that little girl behind
As you also grow up and became someone that's quite stranger to me now
If I can talk to you honestly, I want to ask this question
If you see me now, do you see her?
That happy, carefree girl who loved everything she touched?
Or do you see someone who tries so hard to behave,
behind the make up and the fake smile on her face,
who will walk and talk the way people expect her to,
Who would never run again with you against the wind?
Who would never giggle but politely smile back at you?
Do you remember that little girl?
If you read this, which I doubt you do,
I hope you know I see you now and I'm proud
You've all grown up, and grow up pretty well
I wish I could be like that, too
But, what I wish the most will be ...
When you see me, and when I see myself in you,
I hope we can still see that little girl alive in me
Most of all, I hope I can make her proud.
Love,
Your-8-year-old-crush
.
"8 years old, we're told
You're too young to unlearn how to smile and hate the world
8 years from now on
You'll forget the art of carefreeness and little girls
So 6 young heart kick start and venture
Into a labyrinth of question marks
Mischevous, wide eyed
We had nothing to hide, our smiles were bonafide
We dreamed of super powers, meteor showers
Climbing towers, magic mermaids, flying ships and finding home
In our unlocked golden coffer all we had was love to offer
A currency that once was just enough
Guess we grew up
These day we cease to give a frail and feeble
Damn, we've got new better plans
Crystal clear, each year
Since June of 2010, we've grown cavalier and bland
We used to dance in rainstorms
Fight our battles, win the whole war
We spoke in flames and held hands while we burned
Now all we ever do is vomit apathy
We mop it with apologies, “I’m sorry”s
I worry... I worry we grew up
Things have changed and minds have aged
We're so far in this unfeasible maze
When did black and white decide to propagate
'Cause everything now seems so…. grey
We've forgotten the beats of our own drums
We've lost touch of tunes we used to hum
We smell of sin and no longer bubblegum
Our season is yet to come
Were houses with water stained walls
We're standing but no longer tall
When did we stop having a ball
I don't recall, I don't recall
Here we are, so far
We've walked a lonely road
We're like nomads finding home
But somewhere far inside the 8 year old resides
Whispering you'll be alright
So let us live, let live
Forgive and hope we don't
Fail the souls we used to know
Let's walk each other home
Little souls please don't let go
This unknown is ours to roam
Our little souls will walk us home"
- Nicole Zefanya, Little Souls.
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