Warning : this post contains spoilers of Bridget Jones' Diary 3 : Mad about the boy

To be honest, I never read Helen Fielding's books, including 2 other famous books - Bridget Jones's diary and Bridget Jones's diary : Edge of the reason. Movies only. If you know me, the chicklit type is no longer interesting for me. If you know me, you'll know that most of the time I'd prefer books than movies. But in this case, which is very - very rare, the movie is enough to make me fall in love. I love it. Really. I love how messy Bridget Jones' life can be. And I do, really do love Mark Darcy. He's that type of man I've been looking for and dreaming about. He kinda reminds me of Fitzwilliam Darcy in Pride and Prejudice (because, actually Bridget Jones' diary is the modern version of Pride and Prejudice and a fun fact : Colin Firth played as Fitzwilliam Darcy in Pride and Prejudice tv show version) And I believe it's not only me who falls in love with him. And it's not only me who adores Bridget in her 30s. Maybe the reason why we all love it because it's so relatable. 

I know it's a lil bit late to write this but the plot twist at the beginning of the 3rd book shocked me. Still can't get over this fact 'til now though I read this before

Don't read this if you don't wanna know, 

But...... Mark Darcy is dead! Now Bridget is not the 30ish woman who struggles with her identity, love life, and career. She is now 51, a widow with 2 kids and 5 years after Mark Darcy's death. I still don't think I'm brave enough to read the book. Just the thought of it makes me sad. Not sad, devastated. And after I read the spoilers and the reviews, it breaks my heart even more. I can't imagine how sad Bridget can be. I can't imagine how sad I can be. Some readers wrote that in that book Mark died because he was fighting human rights in Africa. And there's Mark's bedtime poem for his kids and all the things about the grief actually kill me and break my heart. I know it's only fictional character, but damn, it's Mark Darcy!!! Gosh!! 

The selling of the book is high, because of the spoiler of Mark Darcy's death. And there are mixed reviews, but mostly bad review. They say Bridget is still immature, selfish, and she still struggles in her identity, love life, and career even though now she's 51 and has 2 kids- which doesn't make sense.  I can't imagine Bridget in her 50ish abandon Mark's children (it's Mark's!!!!!!) just for the stranger she met on the twitter. I can't imagine Bridget has a nanny. They say the book's ending is happy ending. But seriously, the only problem is I can't imagine Bridget without Mark. I can't imagine Bridget is dating again. Seriously. Bridget and Mark are perfect together. I gotta agree with most of the readers. I'd rather see the struggles between Mark and Bridget as parents than Bridget is struggling as a single mom (with a nanny! geez) and dating again. Some people say the Mark's death is the best part of the book and it makes people cry. Because the other parts (especially the twitter part) is kinda rubbish. I won't write the review until I read the book or watch the movie. But I think it will take a long time to finally have the courage to see him dead. I can't imagine the temporary happy ending nor the grief. Makes me think about this life and harsh reality. About death. And life's temporary happy endings. 

Geez. Mark, you will always be missed. And I love you, just as you are. :'(