Hide and seek


Sebelas, sepuluh, sembilan...
Aku berlari kegirangan dan mencoba bersembunyi di balik bebatuan
Delapan, tujuh, enam, lima,
Suaramu semangat, aku menahan tawa
empat, tiga, dua, 
satu, 
kamu mulai mencariku, 
menemukanku di tempat persembunyianku, 
zona nyamanku
KENA! 
maka tanganmu meraih tanganku 
menantang cahaya, 
dan kini giliran aku menjaga 

Disini, berdirilah, disini
Hitunglah sampai seribu, katamu
Setelahnya kita bisa bersama - sama 
Aku menutup mataku, sepenuhnya buta
Percaya sepenuhnya
Tanpa melihat sejauh mana kau melangkah
Lagipula, seribu bukanlah waktu yang lama

Seribu, sembilan ratus sembilan puluh sembilan, 
Suara mu perlahan menghilang
Sembilan ratus, delapan ratus, 
Derap langkah kakimu mulai samar terdengar
seratus, lima puluh
wajahmu mulai kubayangkan saat aku menemukanmu kembali
sepuluh, sembilan, 
tak sabar mulai aku menanti
lima, empat
Sudah dapatkah aku mencari?
dua, satu

penantian itu usai sudah,
lelah aku berhitung, lelah aku berdiri
seribu hari tepat, 
ku cari, dan tak ku temui 
di balik selimut? tak ada! 
di balik pintu? di balik semak - semak? 
dimana dirimu berada? 

Rupa - rupanya kau sudah lelah dan berhenti bermain 
meninggalkanku sendiri yang menghitung mundur waktu
tanpa pemberitahuan, tanpa penjelasan, tanpa peringatan 

kau tahu, 
aku lelah juga, 
tapi pada akhirnya, aku masih mencarimu, 
dan kau memilih hilang entah kemana. 

I Will Love You Like I Love A Book


February 14th 2014, by Lorraine Polizon 

Just like how I love a book, I will love you until I memorize your every line. The lines you unconsciously create are the things that will linger in my mind forever. I will carefully flip your pages back and forth -not because I do not understand you, but because I adore you too much and I’d like to hear the sweet words flowing through you again and again.

I will try to savor each time I have with you, knowing that sooner or later, because of some pauses, I have to put you down. I will handle you with care because you mean so much to me and I don’t want anyone else to hold you.

You are not perfect, you have your own errors and I’ll probably laugh at you because of it but still, it’s going to be a few of the many things I will remember you by.

Let me cover you with my care–know that I am doing it because I don’t want you to be marked or burned. I will dust off the specs of doubt I have about you by blowing the second thoughts I shamelessly created. And every time I get frustrated because I cannot contemplate on what you are saying, I will patiently read you over and over again until I get your point.

I will take some time to study how you play with my mind but I know I’ll never get the answer to that. Grasping you and taking time to be with you is always something I yearn for every moment since the reality I’m in is full of stress. You amaze me in so many levels because you take me to another world and make me feel ecstatic emotions that I couldn’t feel when I’m stuck in my own world.

Most of the time you make my heart swell in happiness; sometimes you’ll make it ache; but nevertheless, it only strengthens my feelings with each passing moment. As I will read you, I know I will feel many different emotions and I will accept every bit of it because after all, it will teach me new lessons.

I never break the spine of a book, and with that, I will try my best not to break you because of holding you too much. And if ever there comes a time where you are accidentally ripped, keep in mind that I will not forgive myself for destroying something fragile and I will spend the days, weeks, or months even, trying to fix what I have broken.

I will let you breathe for I know you will grow tired of being carried all the time.

You are filled with many chapters and I will appreciate each one of them, may it be good or bad. Forgive me if I place you on a shelf for too long because I am too preoccupied with the things I have to do, but remember that at the end of the day, you’re the one who brings me comfort and peace like no else can.

There are thousands of others out in the world, but you are my favorite book simply because you are wonderfully and uniquely bound together.

And then he got tired.

Happy Belated Valentine's Day.

Semua yang terlambat


Malam itu, aku bertandang ke kotamu
Kotamu yang abu-abu dan berasap
Hari – hari pertama aku menahan rasa
Hari – hari pertama aku berkelana sendiri saja
Dan saat waktunya tiba, kau tak ada
“Aku disini.”
Aku selalu disini.
Di sela – sela harimu yang sibuk,
Terselip dalam senandungmu saat kau bosan
Tersembunyi di mimpimu yang lama kau pendam
Aku disini.
Aku tak bisa, ujarmu
Aku sudah kembali, kembali dari perjalananku, dirimu melanjutkan
Aku tak paham, sungguh
Sejauh ini aku melangkah, dan kau menolak datang
Satu dari tiga ratus enam puluh lima
Sesulit itukah?
“Ku pikir kau tidak akan pergi secepat ini,
ku pikir aku bisa pergi bersamamu suatu malam,” sesalmu
Ku pikir juga begitu
Tapi, sayang sekali,
Seperti kisah kita sebelumnya
Terlambat. 

Besok, aku melanjutkan
Aku akan pergi
Takkan menoleh lagi,
Takkan menunggu lagi.

- Tamat.

Everytime my best friends ask me about you


It's been years, actually and i don't know why, 
But my best friends still ask me about you
(especially the ones who study overseas)
And this is the answer :)

the way Mark loves Bridget. :')

Bridget Jones' Diary has different versions. The columns in newspaper version, the book version, the movie version, the short story, the omnibus, and the script. Pretty-much-the-same-storyline but with different details (and even though there are 3 different endings including the one in 2006 columns) one thing that remains the same is the way Mark loves Bridget. 

Unconditionally. 

(Watch the movie, read the book, or the columns and you'll understand what I mean. I can talk about it non-stop but I won't. and probably you already know that very famous line : I like you very much, just as you are.... Mark said it already 9 years before Bruno Mars' "Just the way you are" and 12 years before Katy Perry's "Unconditionally") 

Maybe one day I'll be lucky enough to find that man, whom I love and who loves me........... just as I am. 

Your hand fits in mine
Like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots 
with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes
When you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs,
The dimples in your back 
at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh, it's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved
The sound of your voice on tape
You never want
To know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you,
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right, darling, but I want you to.
If I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you

 - One Direction - Little Things
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