that's what you'd say, right now

everytime I get too overwhelmed about everything

you'd take me back to that couch again, just sit

and made me slow down a little bit 

you'd take all these clouds and made myself feeling like a fool

for worrying too much

That was you, like a real version of Jason Mraz in my world

Too bad you can't play guitar and you don't like wearing hats

you'd look exactly like him, I giggled as I said it to you

But you liked humming, anyway, 

when you helped me washing dishes or 

when you insisted to help me cook 

And it sounded pretty nice. 

That was you, with a cup of tea every morning

as the exact opposite of me, who drinks lots of coffee every night

you were the exact opposite of everything, to be honest

and I don't know why, but somehow you completed me

You, with your happy-go-lucky personality

and me, who is so intense about everything

You, the joker, the one whom everyone loves

and me, the introverted geek who can't stand small talks

You, care-free at heart but love the precise routine

you'd wake up and go to bed at the exact time everyday

and me, miss-everything-has-to-be-perfect with messy schedules

stuck forever in everyday's routine but adventurer at heart

"Relax", 

you'd say it again,
and you'd hand me vanilla ice cream or raspberry smoothie
you'd make me laugh really hard at simple, stupid things

to you, life is really simple

what a revelation it was, to my complicated mixed-up soul

with you, I won't worry too much about not being good enough

you made me take that leap of faith

you made me go the extra mile 

with you, the future seemed bearable

you made me take down my walls i had built to protect myself

and I let you to see all the parts of me that weren't all that pretty

I let you see my morning face

and you convinced me that every girl is beautiful in her own way, 

with or without makeup, skinny or not, 

I let you know all my childhood stories, my favorite fairytale, 

the way I loved to carry my teddy bears as I traveled around the world

I let you know my dreams and plans, as scary as it seemed to be

I let you see through my highlight reel, to my behind-the-scenes, 

all my insecurities, my constant anxieties,

I let myself believe in your promise - that silly, stupid, promise

simply because you proved me you'd keep your promise, 

as stupid as it sounded to me - you showed up that night

I let you fly,

We stand at the opposite poles, 

and we met at the wrong time, that's what I keep telling myself anyway

We tried to make it work, I know we tried

But we only got planes, trains, and cars

Maybe in another life when humans invent teleport and time machine

Maybe later, maybe never. 

But we tried. 

though nobody will ever remind me to relax anymore.

(5 am, today, and you readers can decide whether this is fiction or fact or stuck in between. Is this something that is literally happened or something you have to read between the lines? You guess! :) <3>